A combination of body-positive Instagrams, genuinely cute plus-size swimwear options (thanks, Chromat), and Jennifer Weiner beach reads eventually taught me to pry my deeply ingrained fear of fat apart from the Are we there yet planet mars shirt Besides,I will do this incandescent joy of summer. But it was a long and hard process to get there, and this year, as I sit with the quarantine weight gain that drove me up several bikini sizes, the temptation to revert back to my days of adolescent body insecurity sometimes feels overwhelming.
